Sick, sick, sick.

Oh crap, am I sick. It's probably because of the stress, but oh, crap am I sick. The migraine I've been nursing since Sunday exploded today, I woke up and my throat hurts horribly (it hurt yesterday a little, but I figured it was because I've been smoking again recently), I'm alternating between nausea and feeling like I'm starving, I'm actually having actual chest pains, I ache everywhere, and I just have this feeling of bleah that so beautifully complements my current state of depression that I feel like I've invented this season's "new black" for disease.

Plus I have my period, and I'm all crampy and crappy from that.

Who'd have thought it was possible to have your period, a flu, SARS, vCJD, TSS, and leprosy all at once?

It's karma from ignoring Puff. I just know it. If I'd started in on the self-flagellation Sunday like I wanted to, I'd be sore but healthy right now.

I've taken so much Excedrin that I'm probably on the verge of giving myself internal bleeding, or something. I'll stop when my ears start ringing. Swear. I don't know why I bother, 'cos it's not really touching my headache, but I think I have a fever and it's helping maybe with that. Oh crap, am I sick.

I need a refill of Axert, but I don't want to go to my Dr because he'll ask why I haven't scheduled an app't to see this other Dr yet, and I will get around to it when I'm good and ready. Not a moment before. It's been on my 'just can't deal right now" list for months.

Now I'm glad I have to do stuff on Friday, 'cos I had to leave Eviljob early. I just felt too shitty, and I was sweating. So I have to make up the time somewhere, and that means Friday won't be "extra" now, but I don't care. I've been asleep since I came home, but I feel like I haven't slept at all.

I was given a sympathy card for Puff-Puff, from SuperMom. She made a bunch of people sign it. That was really sweet. And she told me about LifeGem and then told me to go home 'cos I looked like shit, and to stop and buy zinc & echinacea lozenges from the pharmacy. So I did. I hope it works for your period, a flu, SARS, vCJD, TSS, and leprosy all at once. And possibly impending Spontaneous Human Combustion and necrotising fasciitis; I think I forgot those two before. Since I'm having Puff cremated and I am to pick her up next Thursday, I think I will do that--LifeGem, I mean. If not now, then eventually; I haven't felt like concentrating and reading the site yet. I just pulled it up and marvelled at how it is she can know freaking something about everything, and saved it in Faves for later.

I need to finish checking email and typing past-due stuff, but I don't think I can. I'm going to go lie back down and feel sorry for myself and Puff and everything and everyone and try not to die.

Oh crap, am I sick.